My grandparent dog Jewel (who was really our dog, too -- we would see her almost every day) had been not well for about a month, we thought she was just having some arthritis pain and we were giving her some pain medication that seemed to be helping. Just the month before she got a CLEAN bill of heath! She was romping down the stairs just last week…I can't keep doing this, it hasn't even been 5 months since I lost my cat, who I think about and miss every day.
I was out in Spokane with my friend Wes when I called my mom and asked her how Jewel was doing. She said that she thought that she should wait until I was home before she told me how she was – my heart began to pound right then, "What are you talking about? Is she alright??" "No…" "What's wrong?" "She's gone…"
All I could think was think "oh my god – not this." that was that, she had been put down, and although it was the
right thing to do, it doesn't stop the hurting, or make it easier. I don't like being that kind of upset in front of my friends, all I could do was apologize for being so upset and look for a bathroom for some tissue.
In the last week she had been tripping over herself – when they took x-rays they said that her neck vertebra was misplaced and she had a problem with her nervous system. My grandpa was going to wait, spend some time with her (she was already sedated a little to relax her) and let her know he was there, but when he saw her and she was whimpering badly he thought that it was not right to keep her there for him just to say goodbye, and he asked them to go ahead and let her go in peace. My grandpa was not raised to watch animals suffer, none of us were – but it kills me to know that she was in pain like that, and that was her end.
Tuffy is still around. Tuffy is her brother, they were littermates and did everything together. He is still looking for her, he is whining & I'm so heartbroken all over again. I wish there were a way I could let him know that she will not be coming back, and I wish so badly she could still be here. I wish there were some way we could know when something like this would happen, it's just traumatic to lose her so fast.
She was always SO happy, she was always so sweet, so playful, and always happy to see you - she was the cutest little Shih Tzu/Pomeranian you'd ever meet! She was almost 13 years old. We loved you Jewel and will miss you so much.
(Jewel as a puppy.)
So this went from an already
bad week, to a horrific one. It just doesn't get easier…